Today was the first real day of school. We picked out her outfit the night before and this morning she couldn't stop grinning. She kept asking me if Eva and Mommy would be coming too ... but not because she wanted us there!!!
As I walked her to the classroom this morning I found myself fighting tears - and was surprised. Preschool is not a big deal, right!? Only three mornings a week, 2 1/2 hours each day. I am so excited for her to make new friends and learn and experience new things. I am so proud of her that she just waved goodbye and walked into her room as confident as could be.
She's been away from me plenty of times - at mom's groups, at church, at Bible study, with babysitters - but this is the first time I've dropped her off in a relatively unknown place (to me) and gone somewhere else without her. It's a little scary letting go. And I guess what makes me cry is that this is a very defined step towards growing up and growing away towards complete dependence on me. It's a baby step for sure and there will be harder ones in the future - putting her on the bus for kindergarten (yikes!!!), going to middle school, then high school, driving, graudating....do I really want to go there??!! No! Back to preschool....
It all leads me back to the point of remembering that this child has been entrusted to me, but she doesn't belong to me. Every day when I let her go, whether it be to preschool or high school, I need to give her back to the One who loves her more than I ever could. I need to go to my knees and petition Him because He can do a much better job at protecting her than I can anyways. The best thing I can do is trust Him and take the baby steps as they come. For now I'll be happy we're only in preschool!
7 comments:
Amen!! Well said! I was actually thinking a lot about this the past couple of days because so many friends have children who are starting kindergarten. It won't be long before I'm putting Holly on the bus...makes me really want to enjoy the next couple of years!
Oh how sweet! I bet she's going to love it. We both are entering new phases of our life now, huh?
So much truth here :) She's in good hands...and I really think God will reward you and Andy's decision to put her into a public school. I love you!
P.S. Thank you so much for your prayers!
That is so funny that you wrote this blog....Sam had his orientation today. My eyes were welled with tears the whole time we were there. You spoke my heart. : )
Wow, I really needed that last part this morning. I'm right there with you...Sophia is adorable!
Thanks for that reminder at the end, I really needed that! Hope she had a great day!
"Unto You, O Lord!" INDEED!
Adorable pictures, beautiful words.
Our little Sophia looking so grown up and confident.
Yes, these are momentous days...the clock turns, and we take comfort in the fact that our times are in God's hands.
Great grace be upon this daughter of the daughter of mine...
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